2024-03-19



i listened to komm susser tod on repeat today
i know the lyrics by heart

it's so interesting to compare how i feel today and how i felt when i was a kid

I thought that I could live for no one else
But now, through all the hurt and pain
It's time for me to respect
The ones you love mean more than anything


back then, i was sad, lonely, and isolated in suburbia
i had my friends in online chatrooms and forums, but i didn't feel like i had anything or anyone to live for
i was so unhappy with myself

after i moved out of my hometown and met more people, i grew up, experienced more
the ones i love really do mean more than anything

feel so anxious about having to go back to suburbia soon, even it's for a short while
it's like returning to the scene of the crime wwwww

It all returns to nothing
It just keeps tumbling down
Tumbling down, tumbling down

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that was then   but this is now   what is next?

home   is this still me?